I am about to write a blogpost about wilderness and it all starts with me thinking i have figured it all out, when the search for a good picture is opening my own horizond for different forms of wilderness. Have i thought it´s the same thing? the same for everybody? Maybe the wilderness is individual. Fitting to our understanding, timing and seasons...
I am reading Habakkuk 3:17
"Even I face this circumstances of a wilderness,
I will rejoicce in the Lord,
I will be joyful in God my saviour."
Wilderness, are this what we call as well the desert times, the dry seasons where we go through hardships? Yes, but i feel the wilderness has many different names. I guess the most known one is the period of God´s absence. Can he ever be absence?
I read this quote some days ago: Spiritual hunger intensifies with the absence of God. I can feel this hunger rising up inside of me...it feels so known.
The wilderness a place of pain, desperation, lonelyness, brokeness. It´s the same place i realize that i have been growing and prepared. It seems the wilderness is individualized. It has its own timing and price. When i look back, after being there it should be an oasis - my tears have been watering this place.
"The wilderness is teaches 2 things: First, that God has lead you there and while you are there you figure out why he brought you there - to show you he is good in the end."
I feel like i have heared this before. It´s the valleys that he is teaching us. It`s prayer that leads us out of the wilderness. How many times have i experienced this process of being there in the desolate place, longing for a way out and realizing the one who brought me there is also taking my hand and leading me out. A long that way is laying mystery. Growth has been happening without seeing. Where i have been looking for an answer, i followed eyes filled of love leading me back onto the way of everlasting...
